I’ve been feeling out of place lately from other people. I have my best friend, my girlfriend, and that’s it. It’s not like I’m not trying to make new friends, I’ve been hitting up old classmates, new acquaintances, and just get the run around. I don’t feel appealing. I make an effort, and hear only suggestions as to make myself more appealing. I’ve been getting back into working out and walking/running, which feels good, I just want to see instant results. It’s not the best thing to say, but I hope that if I see a change in my body, people will notice me more and want a connection with me.

The one text message I got today was from WCB. Yay, I got to hear about how I don’t care about other people, I’m a terrible person, blah blah blah…Where’s my text saying how I’m a good friend, how I do care about other people and bend over backwards to show it. I come home to relax, and I can’t. I’m frustrated, anxious, and feel as though I deserve something better. I don’t know where this has been coming from, but I just feel shitty. I need respect, because I don’t seem to get any.